I really have no idea what day it is anymore. I rely entirely on alarms to tell me when to go to class, when to eat, when to do something. I just don’t know anything anymore

it just doesnt feel like christmas this year. it hasnt felt like it in years. maybe im just older, or maybe its depression. idk anymore

There are so many words for home, So many places to call it, So many I would never consider. But I never considered I’d miss the ocean as much as I do, I never considered missing home like I do.

過労して え、何もできる 休みたい

I seriously need a weekend where I can actually relax. Just have no major assignments due one after another due a day apart. I could use a break. I can’t even enjoy doodling to release stress, its just stressful to sit at my desk!

i really miss the stars from home. i guess they aren’t really from home, but i miss being able to see them the way i could back home. i wonder if i can find somewhere here to see them as clearly as i did then. i miss sitting outside with my cats watching the stars satellites and moon after a little walk. i miss the freedom i had

Comfort Fish 11.13.20.20 #42 Crappy day but I got some salmon poke and yeah I feel better. It’s such a good fish you know

I love this class, and I love that I have the option to be in more free form classes, but I do not have it in me to constantly create. I do not have the energy to get out of bed some days. I do not have it in me to think about my legacy. I do not have so many of the necessary motived to succeed much anymore. I am so tired, and so burnout. I cannot give 100% to every class every day with projects and papers any given day or week anymore. I need a break. I am not being creative organically, I am being forced to create solutions to supplement a creativity slump. I am tired, and I want to be genuine.